Trusting Hurt

My tears are falling
Why must this happen to me?
In the space of " known" PROTECTION!???
( AM I )
The feeling I have is DECEIT
carving a smile into my back
Stabbing me at the end
YOU, my best friend
The one of 100% understanding of,
The Book Of Me !!
Tearing out pages
typed with my emotions
Every thoughts has been tainted now
I can't trust you anymore
I've been a true rider for this not
MANIPULATION
It hurts so bad
And yet I cry
Too far to be held
Griped by my NOVOCANE
My love ( wish you could save me)
Because I trusted hurt
GODDAMN I TRUSTED THE HURT!!
Stupid you(me)
Once again failing yourself
This sugary sweet care and love
It befriends!
It defends!
It leans to be cried on!!!
On soaked shoulder you have
Stupid you (me)
And now you see
You have no true friends
favor, for a favor they are
and you...
Stupid you (me)
You TRUSTED HURT
But never again!!