Too late now

Tainted by society.
Claimed notoriety.
Wanting to go.
Nothing to stow.
Nothing to be.
No one to see.
Child unloved.
Feelings shoved.
Drowning in fear.
Grasping what's dear.
Frantic flails.
Broken wails.
Tears fall.
Death's call.
Forever alone.
Somebody's clone.
Deed's done.
Death's won.
Celebrate in joy.
No longer life's toy.
You've finally won.
With the help of a gun.
Look back.
Stop in your track.
They grasp.
They clasp.
They shiver.
They quiver.
They mourn.
They fawn.
Mother's cry.
Father's sigh.
Breakdowns.
Move towns.
Escaping memories.
No chance for sorries.
You realise.
Your demise.
Was in vain.
They feel pain.
They long.
No longer strong.
They feel.
They kneel.
They pray.
Night and day.
Wishing you well.
Hearts swell.
What have you done?
You thought you'd won.
You took the sun.
Left them with none.
Regret's fill.
Perch on life's sill.
Cursed to watch.
Sadness's swatch.
Feel regret.
Jaw unset.
Tears held back.
Certainty lacks.
Want to return.
No longer to burn.
There's no going back.
You've chosen your track.
Nothing you can do.
Red cools to blue.
Got what you wanted?
You've debutanted.
No coming again.
Stuck in death's pen.
Should've been stronger.
Should've stayed longer.
Never knew how.
Too late now.