Most Nights (Every Night)

I'm starting to feel light-headed from all this crying
My mind strays so far from me sometimes
I don't even realize that it's gone
...That you're gone

Most Nights (Every Night)
I lay awake in my bed
Pretending things between us are just fine
That things are back to the way they used to be

When I was in diapers
And you'd rock me to sleep
When you'd sing me a lullaby
Till I learned to count sheep

When the monsters came to party
You'd help fight them away
With plastic swords and blanket capes
In the backyard we would play

I've fallen under the assumption
That God's heard enough of my prayers
And just like you,
He's given up on me

The fibers in my pillow
They can't take anymore tears
And now that you're gone
What's left for me?

I was discouraged souly by my deepest darkest fears
Scared that I'd lose what matters to me most
But never in my most toxic nightmares
Could I dream of losing you

Daddy where'd you go?