Heart to Heart

You asked me what I wanted today
and my reply should have been something like this
I want you to hate me
as I now hate you
I want you to taste my scalding tears
as my hands wrap around your throat not choking but
forcing you to grip and push for your life
sucking the air from your body I press your lips to mine
In that moment I would have searched for your soul as your tongue met mine
flesh against flesh
throat to throat
breast to breast  
palm against palm
I wanted to hold you in my arms
but at the same time I wanted to let your words cut me
deep
until the blood ran streams of pent up pressure
need
until you realized you were the only one who could hurt me
but instead I kept my distance
let you have your "space"
all the while looking into the depth of your
beautiful blue eyes
I whispered my final goodbye...