Starving for hope

Starving for hope
Sickened by the taste of despair
I slice open my budging veins
So the poison can finally drain
I can no longer afford to care

The stress of “my” everyday life
Bounds me by chains of unselfishness
I know that they won’t understand
If they had to live my life – If they even can
--I’m sure they too would ask for forgiveness

Throughout time one thing has remained true
We all have demons wanting to dance with our soul
And it up to us individually to decline
Or to allow them into our hearts and mind
For they desire complete control

Better to have your own will and strength
Then to bring others down with you
Besides the support offered can’t defend them
Only you inside can bring them to an end
--Oh the wounds and scars I’ve battled through

There is life and there is death
We are all born to eventually die
I am no different than anyone upon this earth
I too must die being I’ve been given birth
--There are just certain truths that cannot lie

So here is mine
The truth behind my choice
I am too tired and the demons –they still dance
My heart can no longer feed on this dark romance
--My soul has become one of their toys

Starving for hope
Sickened by the taste of despair
Now this was done with you mind
I believed now is my time
So don’t –don’t think I didn’t care.