Puppet of love/lust

You to me sir are the luckiest man alive.
I know its insane but I'm in love with your wife
I always dreamt of being you
hate my shoes , but I'm glued to it
wish I could replace you
you feed her with your hands I wish those were mine
her naked body is a treat only for your eyes
why not mine?
I fight with lord for giving you my right..
you get to hear her say what I wanted listen to for a million years
my heart beats with her name
but can't get her touch, I get squeezed with pain
I ain't no criminal but she pushes me
try to hold back , but her eyes turns me into a vicious beast
she has got her castle in my head , I'm her slave
my conscience wants to save me but I'm a puppet my master wants me to dig her mans grave
so I'm here waiting for him outside the construction site where he works
holding my hand , no not for forgiveness but for a last kiss from lord before he pours his curse..