Fire and Tears

midday
and I still feel the same way
what the hell am I supposed to do
when once again the pain feels brand new

when it doesn't feel like any time has passed
and I am still so fucking depressed

anger has taken hold of me
which in the past is not something that would be

but after all of this time
and now a fire???
raging
and burning
what the FUCK am I doing?

I rage
and I cry
I claw at my mind
I try to hold it in
and I fucking rage again

I grind my teeth
and bite my tongue
and when I am done
the tears start to run

try as I might
I just cant understand
why all of this pain has so many demands
and why does it push so goddamn hard
leaving behind nothing but scars

a kick to the teeth
and a punch to the face
would feel much better
than this fucking pain
a slice to my flesh
with a razor sharp blade
might help me bleed out some of this rage
when my eyes fill with tears
and my heart beats with fear
when my anxiety builds
and my pain will not heal
my tears try to purge
and extinguish the burn
but the tears only flow
and fire still glows