Torn

I feel so torn apart
left to die
to rot inside
i want to cry
i feel so much pain
so much hurt
i cry quietly while i slice
i cant take it anymore
ive tried so hard
to change my life
to be what you want me to be
i just cant do it anymore
being left behind
being forgotten
it stings my soul
to be unwanted
to be unloved
what does that feel like?
...love...
to be loved...
to have someone there...
by your side forever...?