Missing you

I've been broken,
torn apart.
And in love.
I've been with many people.
Too many people trying to find the right one.
I've met you some time ago.
I've tried to open up,
to show my love.
But it's hard.
Hard because I can't trust.
Sometimes I don't feel like eating,
just wanting to sleep the day away because your not here.
Every second,
every minute of the day I start to wonder.
Start to think that you are cheating.
That I've picked another asshole.
I try to reassure myself,
that you won't do that,
and that you do care.
I love you so much.
My heart breaks every time you leave me.
Leave me to rot,
to burn,
to wither and die inside.
Waiting for the day when I can see you,
be with you,
for the rest of my life.