But For Het

You leave me speechless
You make me feel as if
No combination of twenty six letters
Would ever suffice

Nothing could adequately express what I feel

I miss every conversation
every act of spontaneity
every touch

I miss the way your eyes would
gradually close
when you fell asleep

I miss the way you would hold me when I slept

I would take back every fight
Every ill thing I've ever said about you
Every time I was too consumed in my own life
Every time I ignored you
For another chance to be with you

I forgive your thoughtlessness
I forgive all your mistakes
I can forgive you for just about anything

But I know I'll never cross your mind the way she does
I know you'll never spend sleepless nights thinking of me
You'll never miss my soft kisses all over

We fall for the unloved
In hopes of showing they can be loved
But this love was reserved
Not for me,
But for her