The Covenant

I have an agreement,
Unspoken but once
Once was enough
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My plight is
Unrelenting and
    Confining,
Draining
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I question
     The understandings
     Futility
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Circumstances,
  Make it impossible
           To fulfill
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It grips
My heart, and
Squeezes
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Shackle me,
Words of worth
  Remain
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I attempt to
Appear strong,
  Stony
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I linger,
On and on
In solidarity
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I hope the words
    Remain as are,
Unbroken
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And no new words,
        Confuse my brain
  Arrête
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The partner
         In unheard pledge
    Je t’aime.
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My thoughts
Like currents,
Ebb and flow
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Slip into,
     Another bout
      Of slow decay
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I understand
          It could ever be,
   Never to be
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As chances pass
Through my
Heart of glass,
I wait.

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Fear no evil my dear, I will not desist
I will not take my words of honor to detain them in a cist
This is the reason why we live
To attain the impossibilities we never thought could exist

At long last we will have our day
When we can spend more time than eternity
Contented, simply being
Lazing under a willow, basking in the shade

Fingerprints meet as digits interlink
The hands of our future selves palm to palm
Offering our identities to each other
To do as we please, and relish in life’s ease

Atop the Laurentian Mountains we’ll sit
And contemplate among the midst of mist
How we ever could have lived before this
No past experience was, even near this glorious

Oh but how I only wish that was now
The truth of love would abound around
Like gale force winds blowing down towns
And all that is audible is a significant sound

Reverberations of your voice resound
And off the cliffs they bounce and return
The echo of you is a lovely vice
You speak only once, but I smile to hear you twice

We have been split by borders
Held by our inability cross them
Pained by our willingness to break them
Maddened by the simple hindrance

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I will make it to you
Have no doubts
It’s a matter of time
It’s a matter of mine
And it matters very much

The mountains can wait
They have seen many days
Rising to the sky
No knowledge of time

The lakes below will shiver in the autumn breeze
As they’re catching orange, red and yellow leaves
I wonder when the next train leaves
The fastest way to get to be

But the killer of souls in this case of mine
Isn’t the place or waiting for time
It’s the restraint, self possession
Keeping me strong from thy

Alas I fear I feel too much
Walking long a rickety wharf
Testing the wood beneath each step
Will it bend and not break, or splinter in half?

And so I wish it would
Plunge me into murky cold
Shock my body and turn it numb
Stay under so long it turns me dumb

For as the wait will continue on
I will continue with my own life
And ask about yours and know the trick
Self control when another finds what could have been