Cerebral Meltdown

woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning
because my brain wont let me forget
a heavy weight rests on my chest
yes again, my day starts with a test

my vision blurs from rushing thoughts
bringing me to a fucking hault
demanding that I listen now
from silent whispers
to screaming shouts

caught up in this,
my weeping heart
once again sliced apart
thoughts digging into open wounds
grinding salt that's burning through

the blood that flows from gashes left
by my thoughts that never rest
pouring out inside of me
poison pain is flowing free

burning me like liquid fire
black blood igniting a funeral pyre
inside my chest the burning pain
sparked by thoughts within my brain

just barley has my day begun
and already my brain has come undone
melting down inside my head
and spilling over with burning dread

with my bleeding heart
I struggle to
do the things
I have to do
find a way to distract myself
and hope that it fucking helps