A Compass of Self

Born out on the road, Destined to forever roam these lands
I was thrown out on my own, Fate forced me to live by my hands
I’ve lived a thousand days and the hourglass is forever losing sand
I’ve searched for so long, I need you to tell me who I am

My feet never stop, My heart always does, I’m consumed by distance
My soul has cried a thousand tears, Into a river I’ve drowned in ever since
It takes me away, To darker days, Taken to hell inch by bloody inch
My nerve has become so deadened by this, Every year makes me flinch

Searching for something I could never find, A failure of my own quest and judgment
Am I searching for a home I never had, A deathbed to lay, Can I escape being hell-sent
I sold my soul to escape complacency, As the boatman bled me dry cent by bloodied cent
Now I seek to find my family, Out upon these open seas, Forgive me father, Allow me to repent

My blood has grown cold inside these empty veins, I need your warmth beside me
I need your voice inside my head to replace these demons, I need you to finally see
Your son breathes but barely lives, His lungs are shallow and this sea is far too deep
He needs you to know he’s forgiven you, Allow him to follow you from these hollow streets

Let me hold you close, To open up my eyes and let the oceans flow forth
I need you to see me grown, My legs are roses that forever point north
A masterpiece upon these roads, Open up your eyes and realize my worth
I never wanted you but I always needed you, I never knew which was worse