I'm Scared

I vowed to myself that I wouldn't close my eyes.
I vowed to myself that I wouldn't allow for there to be a goodbye.
I lost all my sense of thought when your lips met mine.
I'm scared that you'll be just another beautiful lie.

I'm scared that you'll turn out to be like the other guys.
The ones that don't show their feelings and continue to hide.
I kind of want me and you to last.
I don't want to continue looking at the past.

I can't believe that we're together now after so long.
I can't believe that the feelings have gotten a little strong.
I think about you a little too much these past few days.
I want to tell you, but I don't know what to say.

I'm scared that all I will do is push you away.
I'm scared that just like all the rest, we'll go astray.
I'm scared that you will look at me one day and not like what you see.
I'm scared that you won't accept me.

I'm scared that it will all just come to a sudden end.
I'm scared that all you can do is pretend.
You haven't given me any reason to show that you don't care.
You haven't shown that you're not there.

Maybe, I should just stop doubting.
Maybe, I should stop counting.
Counting the ways that I'm not right for anyone.
Counting the ways that you could choose to be done.

I know that you like me, but I'm still scared.
I'm scared that the feelings won't be shared.
I'm scared because I'm not tough.
I'm scared that I'll never be enough.