I don't understand

You tell me I don't understand
You're right I don't
I don't understand how
What's right for you
Is so wrong for me

I don't understand why I can't
Just let you go
I don't understand why
You are still under my skin
I don't understand
Why we can't fix this
Why won't you listen
Let me speak my piece
You just shut me down
Shut me out and
kicked me out

I spent my days
Finding the time
And the ways to make
You smile that smile at me
Now your lips just say "go away"
I don't understand
How it got to this
How did I lose you?
When did you decide
I wasn't worth the time?

Every time you baited me
Every time you loved me
Then blamed me
Every time you said
To suck it up or get out
I don't understand
How you didn't see
That I was drowning
In my own apathy

You didn't bother to look.
I should have known from the start
This is all my fault

How you put up with this
For so long
I don't understand