My Wall

I woke up this morning
not a sign of a smile on my face
last night was bad, today could be worse
I feel like I haven't slept in days.

I'm sick of getting jerked around
people taking advantage of me....
They think its so fucking funny
because I'm so naive.

The only thing that's keeping me going
is the little one playing in her room...
a birthday coming, already 5
she'll be a woman soon.

Then I'll have no one
not my so called "friends"
the ones who I thought I could count on
and come to anything.

Now they're all the same too
and I was just one of the boys...
now I'm single and completely free
them being nice was just a ploy.

I know I'm a good person
and I've done some really bad things
but that's life, nothing I can do about it
just wonder what life will bring.

I dont know though
how much more I can take....
I wish someone would just be good to me
completely sincere, not fake.

From now on my guard is up...
only the best will bring it down.
If you think you can use me like them
you best not come around.