waiting

your head in my lap I sat rocking
back and forth I swayed, just like
the time before
I held back the fear as I naively
tried saving you from
yourself, I would sit with you
wiping your forehead with a wet cloth
I waited with you patiently
I had no choice other than to give up
your stare so far away as you said
"marry me",
I told you I would once you got sober
your last lie with a smile out came
"marry me first, be my reason for getting
sober.'
your head on my lap I crouched
hovering your lifeless body for days
and when someone finally came I insisted
I would wait