Angers Burnt Love

Hot, burning, a stinging sensation
Eyes open wide, but nothing can be seen
Can't breathe, can't see, have to go
Stumbling around, where is she, where could she be
Searching, frantic, a gas burns in my lungs
Walking, running, nothing changes

Yelling, yelling, but there is no answer
Where is she, where, where, where
Searching, searching, everywhere, yet no where
She has to be somewhere, she can't just be gone
Shaking, I'm shaking, there's someone here
Hands, hands on me, around me, shaking me

Voices, voices everywhere, yelling, I need to leave, but I can't
Not without her, no not without her, I need her
Walking more, walking, searching, where.. is.. she..
Lights fading, people around, I can't walk, frozen
Getting closer, closer, until they're right there
Falling, gently, fading, lights, hands...

My eyes fly open to a dark room, getting up and looking around
Looking over to the lonely side of the bed, no ones there, once again
Shes really gone, she should be here, she didn't deserve that
Tears roll down my face, one after another, never having a proper goodbye
It happens so sudden, the clock says half past four, another broken night
Fighting had we been, now to only wish we hadn't but all has gone, regret set in place


  "I can't stand being around you! You're such a disgust to me,
everything about you, everything!  I can't stand even seeing you
anymore, never ever do I want to see you around again!"  I say
with a hate in my eyes I never had before.  Her face crumples up
with tears and hate, screaming back at me "I hate you! I don't
know why I ever agreed to be with you, I want out!"  I can't even
see why I chose her, I want her gone, I don't care the cost, I
want her out now, more than ever.  "I wish you were gone!"  She
looks at me with hate and leaves out of the room into the bedroom.
I pace the dining room, throwing plates, cups, anything that can
shatter.  Walking to the living room I trip over a cord and yell
at myself for it.  The lamp falls over and smashes to the ground.
Great, another thing gone wrong.  I light a few candles and lay
one on my chest and lay upon the couch and slowly start to doze
off.  Slowly, ever so gently, I fall into a deep sleep.


I wake up frantic, to yet another nightmare, knowing there's more to come
Lights off, darkness surrounds, lonely, all alone
Why, why did I have to say that, why did we have to fight
Fights are nothing, hatred filled my eyes, hatred in hers
Did she still love me, she she die in love with me
I still love her, tears rolling down my face, why did that have to happen
She didn't deserve that, she should be here, with me, happy

Why did anger choose to control, the pain burns bright
The flames were high, high and bright, burning, consuming
I can't take it, I need her, I can't continue without
She was mine, and I was hers, we were meant to be
I look to my nightstand, it's time, I can't wait any longer, no I just can't
The pills are there, along with my heart, for it awaits to be with her

Hand to my mouth, I swallow what is in my hand, small destructive pills
I lay back and hold the picture, the one of us, happy, together, no regrets
Closing my eyes, I picture her pretty face, smiling, laughing
A tear rolls down my face, a broken heart about to be fixed
Long awaited, I have waited so long, eleven months and it still haunts me every night
Yes, this is the right path, I have waited to long, the pain will never end
I look at the picture and see us, happy, holding one another, holding it to my chest
I close my eyes and wait, patiently, drifting, fading, away I go