Birthday Speech

      Sadie, I never thought that we would be an “us,” I never would have seen this coming. I could have picture myself with just about anyone else whether it be Leigh-Anne or Jill or Kendra or basically anyone else in our group; which is why I think what we have is so special. I guess the parts in life that aren't predictable are always the most memorable when you think about it, whether it be a tragedy or a joyful occurrence. There is nothing I don't remember more vividly than the morning I woke up to find my mother's cold corpse, although that was a tragedy that doesn't mean that this is.  
     I could have predicted my likeness for Leigh-Anne or Logan or Jill or Jake or a bunch of other people I ended up liking over this year. I would have never predicted this, maybe a one night stand but never feeling the way I do about you, which is kind of hard to put into words. The point is, you took me by surprise, and although I might get doubtful that's just because I care so much about our relationship working out. Even though I have a strange way of showing I care and want us to work out, because there is nothing I want more.
     I have always wanted to have a long term relationship, more importantly a long term relationship with someone I can trust not to hurt me. Right now, I can't think of anyone who fits that description better than you. I can't promise forever, and I don't have any little silver heart to give you but I do have a real, blood pumping, cavity in my chest and it is yours if you will have it. It is fragile and covered in scares and the only person I trust not to break it further is . . . you.
     Things happen, people change, accidents take lives and limbs and nothing is certain or forever. I learned that the heard way, obviously at a younger age than most. It hurt, all the things that made me the person I am today, but I guess there were the happy things too. For some reason people don't remember that happy moments as much as the sad ones. I think it's because the sad moments are the ones that are really life changing, the ones that make you grow up and lose your hope in any chance of happiness. But I think if we all just tried to look at the happy moments and not change or grow up per say but to grow as a person from these events, that the world might be a little less cruel. So this is me looking, appreciating the person who makes me the happiest, who makes me want to be a better person, to grow into someone you are proud of.
     I can't promise you forever, and I think it is stupid to try but I can promise you now. Right now, on your 17th birthday I promise to love you like you deserve to be loved. To treat you like a very gothic princess, to appreciate you everyday and to make sure you know that your life is important. That you are wanted and important to me. Sadie, I am not sure how many lives you will change in the future but you have changed mine.
     Sadie, that night when you first slept over my house, just the two of us; do you remember? I went on a long rant on how beautiful you are and that your prince will come along some time, it might not be soon but he would come. We ended up crying and you, hugged me speechless. Well, I meant every word of it and I might not be your prince . . . do to my lack of a penis. I won't be your knight in shining armor either, I can't rescue you when you don't need it. You are brave and beautiful and strange and weird and imperfect and wonderful and caring and absolutely stunning. You don't need a rescue because any problem that comes in your way I know you can deal with it on your own. However I will be happy to give advice or help when you ask.
     I am just trying to say happy 17th birthday; I hope you let me be apart of your future happy, sad, angry, depressing and problematic, memories or situations that are yet to come. I want to be their for the pain and the love that will come, because it's life, and you still have a lot a head of you. I just hope that you plan to include me in these upcoming surprise twist and turns in your life, because I love you Sadie, and couldn't picture my life any other way. I just hope you feel the same; happy birthday sweetheart.