regret

too late to say your sorry
ill never forgive you
it cant be undone
you broke my heart
completely shattered is my heart
you tore a hole no love can fill
and i tear up here cause i love you still
but im tired of being your for now and not forever
what is it i dont have that marks me as the one
i still am so hurt raw and sore
jagged bladeed toungue slithers with liews
woven so intricately even a spider would be jealous
ive given you to god now i realize you gotta save
yourself cause im scarcely saving myself
just remember when again you realize
you may have went to far im too over this to care
you finally made me near hatred
and i use that term never unless its due
however i thought that before i met you
my belief in you diminished
my faith in you has been used up
my dissapointment in you is the devasting blow
cause every time you look at me
you will be dazzled and awed by me
and then you will cry and feel
and youll be alone cold and dieing
wishing god would make me call
promiseing every bit of your soul
if your heart would just beat
without what feels like an air bubble
to the neck when everyday blends with the next
and some random chick climbs out your bed
you will be all but dead inside
a manipulator that believes his own lies
all the chances all the tries im done rolling the dice
i want and deserve something more and better
and im tired of wasting my dreams and i love some one
who will never be intoxicated by me
someone that wants nothing but three hots and twat
i want to be forever and always to someone
and i dont want to be made a fool for it