Answered Prayer

It’s so dark
     Open your eyes
They are open
     Well, shit
That’s helpful
     You’re talking to yourself
So I am.  
     Turn a light on

I reach for the lamp beside the bed
My hand knocks a wall
But my bed is not against the wall
I touch it again
It is not a wall.  It’s above me.  Below me.  Beside me.  At my feet.  At my head.
What the hell?  What the hell?

How did I get here?
Where is here?

Breathe in
Breathe out
Slower, breathe slower
What the hell?

Tears begin
They fall; not down, but to the side
I have tears in my ears
My head begins to hurt
I can feel my heart against the wood surrounding me
What the hell?
Gotta get out.  Gotta get out
Breathe.  Oh, please God!  Get me out of here!

What happened?  Who did this?
My husband?
My lover?
My children?  No, they’re too little.

Breathe in.
Breathe out.
Oh, what the fuck?  I’ll lose air if I keep breathing
I’ll die if I lose air
Fuck, I’ll die if hold my breath!

Please God.  What did I do to die this way?
Okay, not so bad.
I can do this.
God will save me
Or let me die
Didn’t I want to die anyway?
How many times have I tried?
He’s answering my prayer
But hell, I didn’t ask to die this way
Nice one God.  Haha.  Very fucking funny
Okay, sorry God.  Didn’t mean to swear at you.  Sorry.

But really, can you get me out?  Now.  Today.
Please God.  I don’t want to die this way.
Anyway but this

Never mind.  
I close my eyes and breathe
In and out
Until my air runs out

*Submitted and written for the Buried Alive Comp*