i feel so fake

I feel so numb.... My body feels so fake like I don't even recognize life... My hed in a mixed ball of emotions... The deep sharp pain of anxiety settles in my chest... Making it hard to breath and think... I can't see pass my ever so dark thoughts... Some times I wonder witch part of life is real... I feel fake... And yet my mind still puts more troubles in my mind... I close my eyes so I can't see this nightmare... But that's when anxiety sets in dulling my mind... And even through all this pain, and agene I still feel alone... Every thought echo's in my hed... I think of who I am.... And go mad.