forget me nots are forgotten

without you is heaven
if heaven is hell
i cant believe how much you lie
you think shits funny
but im not jokeing
life hurts and you are
the most hurtful part
i cant stop hurting and
im tired of trying  
i have nothing in life
and i thought you were something
my head is splitting
and i keep forgeting
that you could care less
im sick of pain
and yet here i am again
you must find it funny
comical as hell when i cry
my eyes bloodshot all the time
you break my heart
trying not to claim me
treating me as an embaressment
and well i guess i am
cause u continue to humiliate me
and i continue to let you
i hate that i love you
it makes me sick as hell
forget me nots are forgotton
i try to rationalize the pain
but im too done to care
i know where i went wrong and
that was ever speaking to you
so go on and find your skinny perfect
while i find my self cause i lost me in you
and its time to reclaim myself worth
hes not worth my loss of dignity
forgetting what it is to love
expecting shit to get better
but youve decieved and lied to me
cheating where everyone can see
in front of all that know me
no who are you cause ive forgotten
i live and you die decaying an rotten