You fucking fiend....

This is what I see when i close my eyes
This is what I feel when i open my soul
This is me because I choose to act
This is me because I take responsibility of my actions
I decided to do drugs
From
weed to finally heroin
I was a fiend shooting everything I could get my hands on
I suddenly found my self an ghost of the past
Too asleep to think
Too awake to die
BUT
I was the one that said I quit
No remorse
No regrets
And I fucking did it you rotten fiend
Not even trying
but you are me
The fiend that now sleeps
I know it's there but I am...
Just
Too
Afraid
To
Admit
It
Admit that
It's in my hands
And in my hands
Only
To never let it wake up again
Ever..