Sinning Again

 I think I just touched heaven.
but I think I just sentenced myself to hell.

I visited the land of milk and honey,
coating my fingers, coating my nipples.
I visited the depths of Hades,
rippled along the Styx in my ecstasy.

What is a girl to do, caught between
sweet salvation and toxic sin?
Can I be forgiven for the evil thoughts that dance in my mind,
that leads to between my thighs being divinely wet.
I have been anointed by the sweet juices of lust.
Can I trust in repentance?
But how could I repent
when I spent all the time thinking about sinning again.