Mom

I know you may not think so
But I am trying so hard
I’m not like this on purpose
I didn’t chose to be like this
I’m trying my very best
To keep it together
But I’m slowly losing it
I don’t know what you want from me
I’m sorry I’m not the daughter you wanted
I’m sorry I’m suicidal
I’m sorry I cut myself
I’m sorry I hate myself
Please just give me a sign
I don’t know what to do
Will I ever be good enough for you?
If you only knew how much I struggle
In this war with myself
Maybe you’d be there to pick me up off the floor
To save me
It’s time to stop pretending this isn’t real
Stop ignoring me
Help me instead of giving me looks and sighs
It’s not that I don’t love you
It’s just I need you and you don’t fucking care
I need somebody to be there
And I want that somebody to be
You