I'M TRYING

i'm trying really hard      
   
not to cry    
to pick up the pieces    
and never to sigh      
     
but the tears i can't stop      
from caressing my eyes    
  so i'll remind myself    
that    
im    
sill    
trying........    
   
i'm trying sooo hard      
to hide within my smile      
     
but somehow they found me      
they sympathize my lies    
   
don't want you feeling sorry    
so i'll hold my head up high    
but at times it falls down again    
and i remind myself.....    
that    
im    
still    
trying.......    
      
     
i'm trying really hard      
to ignore the pain      
   
but they see in my face      
the hurt from my shame      
       
i try to walk away!      
   
but memories      
brought me      
back to this haunted place    
   
now i sit around    
all confused    
trying to decide    
 on what road to choose      
   
and also    
to remind myself....    
   
that i'm    
still    
trying.......    
     
i'm trying really hard      
to close my door      
but the voices get greater      
than ever before      
       
i'm trying so hard      
to find my strength         
   
because  saying NO    
seems to make no difference    
     
i'm trying really hard    
to stand my grounds    
   
cause if i don't......      
     
there wont be a me      
anymore.........
 
i'm trying  
really hard
to find the me
in my shell
but ether way
i still have to remind myself
that i'm
still
trying.........