what does that even mean?

You never liked me.
Why start now?,
you use to make up shit,
bash me to the ground..
and what!?!
once I start to cut and were black..
you like me?!?

You nearly killed me,
now what!?!
You say im (COOL) what dose that even mean?

You never liked me,
once you saw the blood,
the drugs..
you decided to like me!?!

WHAT THE FUCK!?!

One you saw my arms, my legs.. the bruises,
you.. you just stoped?
what the fuck!?!

You said your sorry- what does that even mean?

what am I too you?
I ask you..
you reply with your fist

Emo cunt,
these words whirl around my head,
one last cut...

one cut, two cut, three cut..
now you like me?
is this a game?

have fun at my funeral bitch!
four cut, five cut, six cut.. what does that even mean?


( it depresses me that I have to feel this way.. but what does that even mean?)