Hint One

Forgive me.
For I have lied.
I made a promise to myself I'd never tell you.
Never let you know
never show,
my newest scars and bleeding cuts.
The ghost in my eyes.
I'll paint my smile on for you,
and dance my perfect dance,
I'll never slip
never trip, because
that would be the loss of everything.
I want you to forget me.
I'll never tell
her secrets,
my secrets,
never give you the key,
I want to stay lost.
You say, "there are two paths you can go by, but there's still time to change the road you're on."
No.
Behind me lies a dead end,
the smell of corrosion and death,
and in front of me
this cracked and run down road,
littered with bottles of whiskey, and vials of pills,
promises me a life,
with no fear, no worries.
Only warmth and happiness.
I can't let you follow me.
I can't let you try to pull me back.
My ring burns from hell.
I've got my hands in the fire,
head in the dirt.
Don't touch my tears,
dust, acid rain.
You see the blue water in my veins,
watch me crumple to the floor.
You will walk away.
I will make you blind,
cool hands over yur eyes
soft laughter in your ears.
I won't let you see me die.
Read my words and understand, too late.
I love you, I'd never leave without answers.
This is your hint,
find your way out of the labyrinth,
I'll wait for you.