Heart's Orbit

Tired of wiping tears
Wasted years 
Feelings held in thinking of what could have been not accepting what is

Trapped in a maze, lost in this phase, not wanting to be fazed secretly I am 
Fazed by the relief instead of tragedy
It's not sad it's just life you see
With every relationship comes a season and with that a reason 

Like elevated to lust 
Lust elevated to love 
Love diminished to hate
Hate rekindled lust
Lust confused for love
Searching for like 
Realizing like was never lost 
Just masked by want for more and not realizing the love we share is far to advanced to be lost in a phase of what could've been
Confused by what is 
Because frankly...
I don't know

What if
He could've been
But why not
Maybe he
Maybe I
If we try 
Could continue to lie to ourselves 
Why?
Because it's easier to lie rather than lye 
Alone in the dark 
Wondering what could've been not accepting what is

It's not a tragedy 
Not sad
Just life you see because the life you see is not the life you once saw
Drifting through a see of uncertainty 
Thinking with you is where I'd rather be but knowing I don't
Hating that you don't 
Wishing that we did 
Feel what in many ways seems so right because the like elevated to love but a love we did not understand 
Could not define
And in turn could not accept

Accepting a friend turned lover, turned friend, turned lover, turned friend
Finally we reach the end of uncertainty no longer thinking with you is where I'd rather be
Now knowing with you is where I shouldn't be
It's not a tragedy
Not sad 
Just life you see more clearly when accepting what is rather than being blinded by what could've been
Now that could have been a tragedy