Catching my breath....

I sit in my room.
Waiting for you.
Waiting for you to come back to me.
But you never do and it kills me so much everyday.
I can't believe it's still this hard, for us to spend a little bit of time together.
Don't get me wrong, I love every second I get with you.
Call me selfish but I want more.
You're never here, with me.
For me.
I know it's not your fault.
I don't blame you.
But don't tell me not to fall apart when you're not here.
To help me stay stable.
When your not here to put me back together.
Don't hate me if I don't tell you how hurt I get.
When you're not here to see it.
Tell me when you look into my eyes.
Do you see the pain in them?
Everytime I look into your eyes.
I almost cry.
Because I know, we haven't got long.
I just want to be with you.
You're the only thing I want!
I want this to change...
I want this to get better...
I wish...
And I pray...
All the time, but it never comes true...
Am I not meant to be with you?
Am I not meant to be happy?
For the first time in my life, I'm happy with someone.
Who helps me to breathe...

Yet...
It's impossible to catch my breath...
When you're gone....