Happiness

You would never guess...
Even at your best.
That I'm actually not as I seem.

No, this isn't some dream.
This really is me.
Just me... no one else...

This is what happens when no one.
Decided to catch me.
When I fell from that high.

That sick, twisted, fake and unreal high.
Good things never last!
I should have learned this from my past...

I'm not me.
I'm someone else.
Someone who isn't from here... someone who was sent from hell.

A switch flicked.
In the back of my mind.
Changing things on the outside.

You think I'm fine.
But you'll never really know.
What goes through my mind.

Every time I look in the mirror I feel sick!
I can't stand the person who's looking back at me...
At it.

"Are you okay?"
"You seem off today."
All the strangers passing say.

Does it look like I'm okay?
Yes, it does.
When doesn't it?

Smiles.
Laughter.
Nothing else.

You would never ever guess.
Who... What I really am.
Pathetic.

That's what.
And I'm done.
It's too hard to believe in a lost cause.
I give up.