Confusing Feelings

How i long for
Someone who understands me
Loves me
Knows me

My family, forced to love me
Never know me
Wouldn't choose me
Do not fill the hole

My friends
I never know
Do they truly like me
Or are relieved to see me go

But there is something wrong with me
I do not understand
Those who speak of lust
Of wanting
For who would want me
And do i want anyone?

What i want
Is to want someone
For more than wanting