drowning in death

the thought of no longer being able to be held be you
made me drop to the floor on my knees
breathless
all i could do is shake my head and wish i could rip my heart out to no longer feel the pain
as tears began streaming down my face i let out the only word my mind was telling me
"NOOOOOOOO!"
wanting to rip my self apart i squeezed my hair in a tight fist and pulled
rocking back and forth
back and forth

in an ocean of tears
i scream for my love to come back
but you cant
cuz your gone
gone for good
leaving me to drown in this ocean
i lie here
obsorbing the pain like a fish frying in the sun
imagining us in each others arms
no breath
more tears
intense pain..
i feel like im dying
i want to.
i need to. i cant take this!!!!!!
TAKE MEE, GOD!!!!