Defused

* = Screaming/growling
Darling,
Don't be so shy.
Because second guessing
means forgetting
and forgetting means moving on.
Darling,
Don't tell me I was wrong,
but don't say you were wrong
and that you're so, so sorry,
because tonight
the sky is so starry.
We're laying under the same starry sky,
so we need to forget last night.
Until the next fight.
I don't care
how many times
I say i'm over you
I know its a lie.
Sadly;
no matter how much you betray me,
we're so much alike.
It's how you portray me.
I know,
so I would be a hypocrite.
You hypnotize me and suddenly I'm leaning in.
All of a sudden,
I just don't give a shit.
Please would you stay?
Maybe just for a bit?
Darling,
Be mine just for tonight.
And if you're gone by sun rise,
trust me i won't be suprised.
I've only got myself to blame.
when you say you love me i know,
In truth you don't feel the same.
It's my fault for trusting you
when I know
what we would turn into.
Sadly there's no prescription,
for my addiction.
Sadly there's no cure,
for my disease.
But your lips,
Heal my heart just a bit.
And when you're gone,
I tend to throw a fit.
Even though I knew it was all just bullshit...
I don't wanna tell any more lies,
but i still wanna lay here with you tonight.
I don't wanna get into a single fight.
Even though you make me smile just to be the reason why I cry and cry
each night.
I don't!
Well I shouldn't be amused!
You broke my heart in half and you broke her's too.
I don't!
Well i shouldn't be in love with you!
But the story's so much different when i see you.
And Even I can see it's true.
*Here we go, we go again! If this ends; I don't want to be friends! Give me back all the shit that I sent! didn't know it go to that extent! how could you let it, let it go there? And while you were with me? Did you even care? I should have known she ended it there, why can't you tell the truth! I'm so fucking through!*
But you heal my heart just a bit.
But then again,
You've hurt it a lot more.
Did you fully hear everything I said?
The Day I walked out the door?
Did you really listen to everything i decided i shouldn't say?
When you decided not to stay?
Did you think,
I didn't stand a chance,
with anyone else?
Another fused romance?
So you just gave me
about a week and a half,
just to get a laugh,
out of how i'd advance?
How i'd smile for a while,
thinking of you?
That's so fucked up,
I've had enough.
All I can say is fuck you.