I'm Naked Now

This is a tell all, in a sense. It's imperfect, in more ways than one. Don't judge, for deep down, we're all imperfect.


I haven’t lived since I was 14
When I learned life leads to death

Every woman I look at, I potentially love
Every woman I’ve ever loved was in love
With another lover of hate
Although there’s been only one I’ve loved
That’s made me afraid to love again

I pull my meat to forget her for a second
Of ecstasy and, after that second dies
Like the others before it, I die a little for her

I wanted the world to end an infinite amount of times
But I’ll spend an infinite amount of my life
Waiting for it or me to end
The latter shall be fact

I’ve smoked pot only once, and I felt
Nothing, and I realize that’s what you’re supposed to feel
But I felt nothing from the nothing you should have
Just another way to look like a fool

I wish to kill myself, but the point after life
Is a mysterious, incomprehensible slush
That, and, I don’t want my mother to cry

People scare me, slice through me
Although they’re the ones I can relate to the most
I want them all to turn into Hiroshima shadows
So I could unlock my doors and walk outside
And at the same moment, I want to embrace them
Tell them we’re in this together
Then invite them inside for some coffee and cake

I’m broke, jobless, helpless to those that are straight opposites
And uneducated, since ignorance is the real bliss in life
You can obtain with the greatest of ease
Just stand perfectly still, and watch everyone else fly by
You’ll feel out of place, miserable of their distance
But at least you’ll have what they don’t
Or so you’ll think, or not think, since you’re a moron like me

The only hope I have left in this unforgiving world
Is the fact that someday, she’ll walk up my steps
Knock in secret code, then tell me I’ve felt the same way
Ever since I saw you looking at me across the room