"Dream Master"

Is there a dream master?
one to control peoples dreams?
make good dreams?
take away bad dreams?
everything will be cold & dark,are you afraid?
are you ready to die?
are you afraid?
everything dies.
follow me into oblivion.
this lust demon attacking me within my dreams tickin' me off.
makin' me screamin' as i'm spillin' my semen.
lust demon you make me sick.
lust demon i just hate you.
not one child out of the many coulda beens i busted out.
all the grief and sadness i feel.
the one thing that hurts me the most is i have no family still.
i know they hate me.
i know they can't stand me.
i know they wish i'd kill me.
so much for family.
dream master is really a dream demon.
he comes whenever you sleep.
he don't care about the season.
as a child i was the ugly duckling.
cursed by the glutton demon sure thing.
father mentally abused me.
father called me a "fat ass" a nothing.
regardless of all the bullshit.
i still have nothing but love for them all no doubt about it.
the 4 words i'd like to hear from my dad before i leave this earth,
"I LOVE YOU,SON."

The end is near.
death i do not fear.
being afraid is not in my vocabulary.
dyin' alone we all do that.
for someone who's never done hard drugs,
i'm pretty messed up still.
i will be gone from this world soon.
39 now 40 gone.
gone away.
far away.
today is tomorrow we worried about yesterday.
i don't know why i allow the wreckage of my past to bring me down & destroy me.the family torment,the bad relationships.A proven fact,all i come  in contact with turns to shit.
Natas is attacking 24/7 trying to keep all of us from getting into heaven.
God forgive me for my sinz.
i know i've been bad.
so bad,so sad,so so so so so so so..........