Given up

Are you aware?
Of what you do to me?
It's not fair.
But from what I've learned, loving someone truely, the feeling never ends up shared.
I don't care, If you don't care.
I've given up anyways.
Because my mother, heard the thunder.
And that's when she knew she'd have to get away.
My father cried, I never though I'd see something like that.
But it's inevitable. Heart break has an impact.

I've given up.
Given up on us.
Not h=just on us,
but on love.
Because you've seen
the things he's done to me.
And even though it sets me free,
there's no point there will always be just a memory.
And the person I end up with will end up hating me.
Being with me all the time,
I'll drive them out of their minds.
Surrounded by you,
I feel like there's nothing I can do right.

I feel like i'm dying.
I'm not worthy of love.
But is it really here,
for any of us?
Time and time again;
You try but you only pretend.
In the end they'll decide
you're just not good enough.
And then you're out of lock.
How could you be so stupid as to love?
After what it did to us?

I've given up.
Given up on trying.
So I'll stay here crying,
don't wipe my tears
if you won't always be here for me.
There's no point in censoring any of it.
And if you think we're dying,
If you think I'm not trying,
If you think I'm just a lying bitch.
Than no one gets to see
the harm you've done to me.
I'll put on a smile
I'll say 'I'm okay'
But I won't trust again,
because although i'll defend,
they'll just use and abuse me.

There's no point staying here.
There's no point in pushing for us to move on.
I'd feel pathetic, Because you're silently screaming 'so long'...
Now you've moved on.
But I've been here all along.
You won't be with her for long,
before you say run along,
and leave her just like me.
Wondering how this could be.
And she breaks down on her knees,
and starts crying like me.