I smile

A smile filled with so much pain
But displayed brighter than any other
A laugh tinted with hurt
But amplified with so much soul.
Blood-stained eyes from the tears
That have become my lullaby
But still glow enchantingly..

My face they seem to be drawn
Like bees to a flower
Even though it is engraved with ghastly scars
My poisonous smile,
Cunning,scheming,duping
This heart now they seem to crave
Like drugs to an addict
With the ideology of its purity..
But i know scarlet,shredded,wounded
It lays on broken glass

I hate how they look at me
And see strength and stability
When im so hallow and frail.
I hate how they stare
But look right past me,
I hate how they stay fixated on my face
And fail to see the trail
My tears leave behind.

I smile,
Even though every bit of me is fragmented,
And has admitted defeat.
I cloak myself with a delusion of happiness
Even when my lungs refuse me oxygen
I smile still,
Even though I'm so broken inside