It Was Good

Baby, I must be leaving here,
I hear Death calling my name
And I'm afraid I'm far too late,
I've already begun to disappear.
There's something killing me inside,
Something I did to myself,
Something for which there is no help,
And it's taking me slowly from this life.
I feel my body giving in.
I fight and I fight, to no avail.
Each day I find my face a lighter shade of pale.
This is a fight I just wont win.
I'm sorry to leave you, I didn't know
What I was doing to me I was doing to you,
I gave to temptation, what else could I do?
And now I'm afraid that I'm dying alone.
Diseased in the body, broke in the soul.
I wish I could have calmed my hands,
Took the pain and been a fucking Man.
But look at me now, the damage done, lying in my hole.
I only wish now that I could touch your face,
Kiss those sweet lips and hold you close.
Just look into your eyes and have one last dose,
Before the Reaper  comes knocking and I leave this place.
It's funny how all those little things,
Once so abound, now seem so far and few,
It's funny how now that I know I cant see you,
I want you so badly, but you're just a Dream.
I'm sorry I wasn't what I said I would be,
Right there for you when you most needed me.
And what I regret most is I was too blind to see,
That I belong there with you but still chose to leave.
I've got to go now, Babe, Hells Fire awaits,
The Reaper is wrapping upon that cold door.
I've lost all my strength to rise up from the floor,
Next time you'll see me is beyond Grave Yard gates.
I tried to Love you as much as I could,
I'm sorry if it didn't seem like much.
Remember I love you and treasured your touch...
Of this life I've only this to say:
"It Was Good."