Lost thoughts

Trapped in this mind of mine I hold on to the only thing I am familiar with once again...I keep thinking that one of these days I will wake up and have a good day...And I haven't had one yet... I have had good moments... But, not a full good day. Inside I feel like my heart has stopped... I feel as if I am cold again. Memories flooding my brain. When I met you I thought that maybe for once I wouldnt have someone walking out of my life... But.. that logic was ruled by emotion clouded with hopes.. dreams... love.

A wish... That is all I want... One simple wish for us to be what we want. But I know I am dreaming again. I Know that I will wake up and you'll be gone.. and she will be crying. And so will I.

I read your words.. I feel your pain.. I cry your tears... and see your beautiful eyes...

I check my phone every 10 seconds just to see if you have texted me..
Maybe I am obsessed... but I know it is love...
I just wish that the world was kinder to you..
cause' you do not have to fight to live..
Make life your slave...
Maybe I am crazy cause all my words and thoughts are not making sense..
But If you were inside my head you would understand...
You would see how much I love you and how much I care.. You would see that us fighting only made me bleed.
My words were harsh what can i say? I am only human nothing less nothing more...

I just want to be happy with you.. Cause I know that you notice me unlike the others before...

So...
Please just do not leave us..
I dont think I can bare it...
I wont know what to do...
I will be lost just like my thoughts...

Baby... I love you.