So Sick (of all This Shit)

Everything inside of me hurts.
I feel like I'm burning.
I feel like the only way
it'll get better is
if if I am bleeding.
My life is in ruins.
I'm broken into tiny,
fragile pieces of who
I once was.
I
am
so
sick
of
all
this
shit.

I want this all to
be over. I want
this to end.
I want to be dead.
I want to be dead.
So, tomorrow
I'll
put
a
bullet
in
my
head.

I don't want to use
my friends anymore.
They need me to
be there to support
them, not just me
crying all over them.
I
am
so
sorry
to
those
I've
hurt.

For what its worth,
every part of me
is hurting. Pain
consumes me like
fire. So, tomorrow
I'll
put
a
bullet
in
my
head.

I don't want to hurt
anymore. I don't want
to feel anymore. Being
dead sounds like heaven,
though I know I am
going to Hell.
I
am
so
sick
of
all
this
shit.