hatred eternal

inside me hatred is always flowing in every single vein
My hatred,lack of happiness has made me insane
My hatred is like a fire that can't be put out
I can't release it no matter how much I scream or shout
I am never optimistic
I can never look at the bright side because im so pessimistic
To me everything I do is a mistake
My life does not feel real,it has always felt fake
And trying to bring myself to reality
Just brings me closer and closer to absolute insanity
To me sadness is my happiness
Since I feel it so often,since my mind is lost in my own madness

The pain,the self-destructive habits i've created
That is why towards myself I am hated
I know nothing I really say makes sense to you
And that is the point it's not supposed to
For you will never know my hatred which is undying
Don't try to figure me out it's not worth trying
My hatred has changed me
And it will never cease to be
It will never die,never
It will live on forever
For it will be hidden and internal
My hatred eternal