Just Another Day?

another day to the
world it seems
but its something
more to me
time passes
by in a blur
a haze
to the world
its just another day
I almost forgot when I woke up
what the meaning of
today was
as the sleep
cleared my mind
and I rubbed the slumber
from my eyes
I saw the day for what it is
and painful thoughts
came rushing in

if the sun came out
and the sky was clear
it would still be dark
and grey right here
upon my heart
a falling rain
casting shadows
of tears and pain
another day reminding me
I miss the way that
things should be
an empty void
that I cannot fill
a reality that is all
too real
I want to close my eyes
and try to sleep
and hope that this is just a dream
a nightmare
I wish that I could end
a reality that
I could transcend

but I have to face
the day today
and make it through
all the same
I can't see what the world sees
not just another day to me
the thoughts
that rush into my mind
pour out as tears
from my eyes
and the world is so damn
grey right here
might it help
if the sky would clear
to stop the fall
of the drowning rain
and slow the flow
of tears and pain
to fill the void
that I cannot fill
an emptiness thats all too real
I cannot dream
if I do not sleep
therefore I know this is not dream
the nightmare
that I cannot end
the pain that cannot transcend...