lost path

As i sit and listen to the radio play many different songs i begin to wonder where did i go wrong.
 I've left behind everything and everyone I've ever known yet my new path has yet to be shown.
 I sit feeling scared and alone my mind filling with so many different thoughts I just want to hide.
 I'm so tired of keeping all these feelings locked up inside.  Why is it so hard for me to find myself again.
 Wishing I could go back to where it once began.
Drama starting all around me why cant i just hear some kind of peace full sound.
I've began to give myself a little pain, God is this the only way I can stay sane.
With every passing day I begin to miss my son even more.
 Making me feel as though I'm falling even more apart.
 If not for him I might not even be here to worry about making a new start.
 He deserves so much more then I'll ever have.
 I just pray he has a good road paved.
 Dear God, wont you send me an angel from above I promise I wont give him a shove.
 Why cant I make all this shit go away.
 Please don't make this where I have to stay.