Submissions by u53l355 (The_Real_Grifta)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I like to write , I have terrible grammar, spelling ect ect , but I have emotion and passion .
LOVE POEM
Published
22nd May 2023 5:20pm
22nd May 2023 5:20pm
The reflections of A lost Goodbye (white lines on the bitumen)
I have driven this road so many times before in the past
I will drive this road so many more times in the future
The rout that I drive never held any further significance for me until .... well
Until I met you.
I remember driving this road for our first encounter
A full tank of anxiety fueld excitment as ,
I drove with you by my side , loving memories of our banter, driving late at night finding comfort in one another's silent presence
I remember driving that road alone , empty in my heart as I manuvered into the worst crash I have ever experienced ... ...
I will drive this road so many more times in the future
The rout that I drive never held any further significance for me until .... well
Until I met you.
I remember driving this road for our first encounter
A full tank of anxiety fueld excitment as ,
I drove with you by my side , loving memories of our banter, driving late at night finding comfort in one another's silent presence
I remember driving that road alone , empty in my heart as I manuvered into the worst crash I have ever experienced ... ...
#love
#heartbroken
#breakup
#memories
#SelfReflection
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SELF POEM
Published
23rd Mar 2023 1:09pm
23rd Mar 2023 1:09pm
Train Passing
Looking down at my feet on the cold grey tiles , the tips of my shoes edging closer towards the yellow line , i can read the text stencilled on the ground although like the scramble of thoughts in my head these words make no sense to me .
I hear a tremble coming from the tunnel up the tracks . Lights gleaming brighter as they make their way towards the station , I blankly stare as they approach , Paralyzed by the thought of ending it all .
A train passes the platform on its express journey to the stadium , the wind from the carriage hits my face like punch to the cheek . I...
I hear a tremble coming from the tunnel up the tracks . Lights gleaming brighter as they make their way towards the station , I blankly stare as they approach , Paralyzed by the thought of ending it all .
A train passes the platform on its express journey to the stadium , the wind from the carriage hits my face like punch to the cheek . I...
#depression
#suicide
#MentalHealth
#emptiness
#trains
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SELF POEM
Published
14th Nov 2022 12:56pm
14th Nov 2022 12:56pm
Behind the cameras
A skeletal hand reaches out from a blinding light ,
Inviting me to the darkness beyond the earth realms plight,
Side stage waits , I'll step into the shaddows on the wings
To walk away from the stage to see what the unknown brings ,
I no longer fear
For I am not long here
Inviting me to the darkness beyond the earth realms plight,
Side stage waits , I'll step into the shaddows on the wings
To walk away from the stage to see what the unknown brings ,
I no longer fear
For I am not long here
#death
#acceptance
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
3rd Oct 2022 12:10pm
3rd Oct 2022 12:10pm
Looking in
Have you ever considered while your out fine dining ?
There's a kid sitting at home Hunger pains he's crying
His mother does her best to keep providing
She's works till the am everyday cos she's trying
To provide for he boy after she caught hubby lying
So he waits on his own late nights subsiding
Bides his time in the rhymes that he writes
To distract him from the cracked wall home he resides
Wants to break the chains but the shackles are too tight
To young to move out misfortune collides and he tries
But he's tired and tortured and...
There's a kid sitting at home Hunger pains he's crying
His mother does her best to keep providing
She's works till the am everyday cos she's trying
To provide for he boy after she caught hubby lying
So he waits on his own late nights subsiding
Bides his time in the rhymes that he writes
To distract him from the cracked wall home he resides
Wants to break the chains but the shackles are too tight
To young to move out misfortune collides and he tries
But he's tired and tortured and...
#depression
#death
#suicide
#ShortStory
#apathy
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SELF POEM
Published
25th Sep 2022 10:08am
25th Sep 2022 10:08am
Chemical imbalance
There's a cigar burn on my heart,
Scars that never heal just tear apart,
This black dog weighs heavy on my shoulders,
Days keep repeating only I'm getting older,
I miss getting knees grazed
While playing in the rain,
Youthful tears to hide away the pain,
Thinking back it was silly to sulk over some of the stupid crazes,
Now I'm losing my mind in bad places ,
The worst part is I can feel it all slip away,
Pieces of my soul breaking off like a cigarette in an ashtray,
Struggling to wake up in the morning
Not tired but knowing about ...
Scars that never heal just tear apart,
This black dog weighs heavy on my shoulders,
Days keep repeating only I'm getting older,
I miss getting knees grazed
While playing in the rain,
Youthful tears to hide away the pain,
Thinking back it was silly to sulk over some of the stupid crazes,
Now I'm losing my mind in bad places ,
The worst part is I can feel it all slip away,
Pieces of my soul breaking off like a cigarette in an ashtray,
Struggling to wake up in the morning
Not tired but knowing about ...
#anxiety
#depression
#loneliness
#suicide
#emptiness
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SELF POEM
Published
19th Sep 2022 3:44am
19th Sep 2022 3:44am
Relapse
it's A sinking feeling
like the ocean has opened
waves crashing down
seeming all to familiar
words I can't get out
when I try talk
I splutter
The clouds casting darkness
I'm still reaching for air
can't see
can't breath
wanting but I
Can't speak
...............................
I'm cold
.......
shivering in the icey waters that i have fallen
not crying but Bawling
this time might be the right time for me to go away tonight
i can't keep fighting,
blood on my bottom lip from...
like the ocean has opened
waves crashing down
seeming all to familiar
words I can't get out
when I try talk
I splutter
The clouds casting darkness
I'm still reaching for air
can't see
can't breath
wanting but I
Can't speak
...............................
I'm cold
.......
shivering in the icey waters that i have fallen
not crying but Bawling
this time might be the right time for me to go away tonight
i can't keep fighting,
blood on my bottom lip from...
#anxiety
#kindness
#depression
#relationships
#suicide
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SELF POEM
Published
8th Sep 2022 6:18am
8th Sep 2022 6:18am
Drive
Drive
The power and force
To push forward no matter what
And show no remorse
To get what you want
To never give up
Broken hearts , broken mind
To find the time to sacrifice ...
Yes sacrifice
Give up
Don't try
Lie to yourself
Justify the time given
Time given to your art , to express your soul
To focus on you
It's your mental health
Others actions aren't worth your exhaust
Take the steering wheel
Put your foot down
Run down the hoards of the mind controlled crowds
You...
The power and force
To push forward no matter what
And show no remorse
To get what you want
To never give up
Broken hearts , broken mind
To find the time to sacrifice ...
Yes sacrifice
Give up
Don't try
Lie to yourself
Justify the time given
Time given to your art , to express your soul
To focus on you
It's your mental health
Others actions aren't worth your exhaust
Take the steering wheel
Put your foot down
Run down the hoards of the mind controlled crowds
You...
#depression
#inspirational
#suicide
#SelfReflection
#art
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SELF POEM
Published
4th Sep 2022 5:30pm
4th Sep 2022 5:30pm
I'm 30
It's easier to find another way
When things get tough
It's easier to just walk away
Rather than putting in the work
I'll go the pub to procrastinate
Started when I was 18
Get it done later
I'm fucking 30 now
And shit still isn't finished
When I finally seeked help
I got prescriptions to seal my fate
When the effects wear down
I lye in the gutter again
Back to where I started
Under a mountain of debt
Regret
Can't afford to move on
Don't save me
Let me decay
I don't wanna grow up ...
When things get tough
It's easier to just walk away
Rather than putting in the work
I'll go the pub to procrastinate
Started when I was 18
Get it done later
I'm fucking 30 now
And shit still isn't finished
When I finally seeked help
I got prescriptions to seal my fate
When the effects wear down
I lye in the gutter again
Back to where I started
Under a mountain of debt
Regret
Can't afford to move on
Don't save me
Let me decay
I don't wanna grow up ...
#depression
#regret
#SelfReflection
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SELF POEM
Published
30th Jun 2022 5:44pm
30th Jun 2022 5:44pm
I'm drunk,need help , won't ask , don't tell
I can't help but feel pain
This life I chose is too deranged
Confusion with the illusion
Of being so tired and abused man
I keep the feelings on my side
Try to hide but it don't feel right
Fight the pain and affliction
Tried to stand but down iv been stricken
The wicked pain I felt the Shame
As I tire I tried to rearrange
The strange feeling when I turned the page
But the books in a flaming rage ,
I burnt this time trapped in a cage
Fuck this shit I'll be asstranged
As I cry in this night of Shame
I'm...
This life I chose is too deranged
Confusion with the illusion
Of being so tired and abused man
I keep the feelings on my side
Try to hide but it don't feel right
Fight the pain and affliction
Tried to stand but down iv been stricken
The wicked pain I felt the Shame
As I tire I tried to rearrange
The strange feeling when I turned the page
But the books in a flaming rage ,
I burnt this time trapped in a cage
Fuck this shit I'll be asstranged
As I cry in this night of Shame
I'm...
#anxiety
#depression
#death
#LifeStruggles
#suicide
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
12th Jun 2022 11:53am
12th Jun 2022 11:53am
Dark places
Lets face it ,
The world is a scary place
Filled
With dark places
Angry faces
Slow paced
Lust lock saved faces
We're all discrassed
By the
Hollowing hast make shift
Shafted by the shift of the common paced paces
Offended by a moden day racist's
Cancel the hampster wheel as we run in race
Run out of time and the whole things been misplaced
The trojan horse on your door step
Please let it in
As a strike of reality , forgives one's sins ....
Death is a concept
We keep running away ...
The world is a scary place
Filled
With dark places
Angry faces
Slow paced
Lust lock saved faces
We're all discrassed
By the
Hollowing hast make shift
Shafted by the shift of the common paced paces
Offended by a moden day racist's
Cancel the hampster wheel as we run in race
Run out of time and the whole things been misplaced
The trojan horse on your door step
Please let it in
As a strike of reality , forgives one's sins ....
Death is a concept
We keep running away ...
#anxiety
#depression
#identity
#LifeStruggles
#suicide
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LOVE POEM
Published
9th Jun 2022 3:39pm
9th Jun 2022 3:39pm
Unknown Caller
Phone rings
Unknown number
Fuck that shit for disturbing my slumber
But I answer .. fuck why not ?
Some one calling at this time needs me or
They've lost the plot
Familiar voice down the line ,
Fuck
It was the latter ,
Dosnt matter ,
as she spoke my heart sunk
Memories sponging in like oil in batter.
She's drunk again , this happened only a few months ago ,
I say "why you buzzing me ? You should leave me alone ,Plus We discussed that we would never again be in contact , had
Something to do with ya partner...
Unknown number
Fuck that shit for disturbing my slumber
But I answer .. fuck why not ?
Some one calling at this time needs me or
They've lost the plot
Familiar voice down the line ,
Fuck
It was the latter ,
Dosnt matter ,
as she spoke my heart sunk
Memories sponging in like oil in batter.
She's drunk again , this happened only a few months ago ,
I say "why you buzzing me ? You should leave me alone ,Plus We discussed that we would never again be in contact , had
Something to do with ya partner...
#anxiety
#lust
#lies
#bullying
#manipulation
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SELF POEM
Published
8th Jun 2022 5:07pm
8th Jun 2022 5:07pm
The Gamble
High stakes
Shuffle the deck
Cut it
Discard a card
Deal
Good cards
Bad card
There's a joker on the table
As you put out your big blind
Holding my queen of hearts tight
Pair of Aces feels right
Its gonna be a good night
First round called
Dealer flops the first three
No queen to be seen but your aces are still keen
Raise the stakes , this is becoming a fast race a the couple on the other side of the table folds and sits back could see its too risky and they'd rather relax and enjoy a nice whisky. ...
Shuffle the deck
Cut it
Discard a card
Deal
Good cards
Bad card
There's a joker on the table
As you put out your big blind
Holding my queen of hearts tight
Pair of Aces feels right
Its gonna be a good night
First round called
Dealer flops the first three
No queen to be seen but your aces are still keen
Raise the stakes , this is becoming a fast race a the couple on the other side of the table folds and sits back could see its too risky and they'd rather relax and enjoy a nice whisky. ...
#depression
#breakup
#SelfHarm
#alcohol
#addiction
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