Submissions by twotwisted89

i take a hit, and it arms me up, i wait and give it a feww.
slowly it starts to creep up and make me fell the daze that dances me in and out relaxtion.
idk know if i am  i feel comfotable ne more in this state i dont know if it the numb reality or the paranoid schizophrenia  that calms me.
slowly i realizie that the voicess start, the self doubt that i subconciously tell myself through the voices of others.
friends, family, and acquaintances.
they remin me of i look or smell the way i talk or how i feel.

Get next to me, touch me, hold and kiss me deeply
Break ice with a lil vanilla lips.

Say my name in a whisper and let me feel your warmth, we may not know each other yet, but I know you are out there somewhere, jus come and find me.

In my dreams or on the street i'll be here or there waiting.
Come and love me deeply.

Longing for the touch and warmth of a whisky whispered smiled I linger at the door,
Reaching for the night air like it will run for me I wish to be out there.
Trapped by my own actions here I sit growing u for them, are u not for me I don’t feel u are?
I feel as if the night as already taken u away from me and u haven’t even a star or felt the moon
Beams on your face.      

*i wrote this almost a year ago.

excuse the grammitical mistakes but, im free styling*

I sit and I watch the sun raise to another day that reminds me I am no longer succeding in this life.
I can no longer see the light at the end of the tunnel, just the reminder of the guilt and shame.
There eyes watch me as I walk down the streets of the judgmental town,
no matter how hard i try to make them believe thats not me, i am slapped in the face with there fuck up annoucements, there bracelets to remind me how bad i am.
Bad mother, bad employee, shitty life.
How far can i fall into my cave of self...