Submissions by scorchy902 (Caitlin)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Mother Dearest
Mother Dearest,
I thought you had loved me.
Perhaps you only loved yourself
You may deny and say you loved me
But save your lies for yourself
Remember when you found the cuts on my wrist
And in response you wrapped your hands around my neck
And repeatedly hit me in the face
That wasn't love
Remember more from that day
When you went on about all the things you wanted to expierence with me
But thought you couldnt anymore
All because I cut myself
I still don't understand why
I was still alive
On that same day
With all...
I thought you had loved me.
Perhaps you only loved yourself
You may deny and say you loved me
But save your lies for yourself
Remember when you found the cuts on my wrist
And in response you wrapped your hands around my neck
And repeatedly hit me in the face
That wasn't love
Remember more from that day
When you went on about all the things you wanted to expierence with me
But thought you couldnt anymore
All because I cut myself
I still don't understand why
I was still alive
On that same day
With all...
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The Lucky Ones
Day after day
I dread the next morning
Having to wake up to sunshine
And birds singing
Making the world seem so happy
Making the world seem perfect
But it is far from it
I hate the world
I envy those who are so happy
The ones who actually feel like they have
Something to live for
Motivation to get out of bed each day
Instead of dreading
Every moment they have to be awake
Every moment they spend
Secretly hiding their pain
Every moment they just want to die
Every moment they are trying not to break down
And cry
For...
I dread the next morning
Having to wake up to sunshine
And birds singing
Making the world seem so happy
Making the world seem perfect
But it is far from it
I hate the world
I envy those who are so happy
The ones who actually feel like they have
Something to live for
Motivation to get out of bed each day
Instead of dreading
Every moment they have to be awake
Every moment they spend
Secretly hiding their pain
Every moment they just want to die
Every moment they are trying not to break down
And cry
For...
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The Street
As I walk this wretched street
Reminding me of my empty life
Seeing these sad buildings
Reminding myself of this never ending depression
I see blank faces
Driving ordinary cars
I watch sad kids
Wanting some joy
But there is none here
This street is a lot like me
With its emptiness
Like the empty feeling inside of me
Sad buildings
Like my sad eyes
The blank faces
Like the blankness of mine
Ordinary cars
Like my ordinary life
And all the sad kids,
Just searching for some joy
Like me,
In...
Reminding me of my empty life
Seeing these sad buildings
Reminding myself of this never ending depression
I see blank faces
Driving ordinary cars
I watch sad kids
Wanting some joy
But there is none here
This street is a lot like me
With its emptiness
Like the empty feeling inside of me
Sad buildings
Like my sad eyes
The blank faces
Like the blankness of mine
Ordinary cars
Like my ordinary life
And all the sad kids,
Just searching for some joy
Like me,
In...
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Empty
Deep down inside me
There is something missing
Something that is supposed to fill you
With joy and happiness
That is supposed to make life worth living
Something that I don't have
The empty feeling I have
Surrounds me,
Engulfs me
Not letting me enjoy life
Making me want to end it instead
There is something missing
Something that is supposed to fill you
With joy and happiness
That is supposed to make life worth living
Something that I don't have
The empty feeling I have
Surrounds me,
Engulfs me
Not letting me enjoy life
Making me want to end it instead
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My Cage
These four walls surround me
Trying to bring me down
They close in on me
Making the area
Smaller
And smaller
Trying to suffocate me
Trying to break me
Not wanting me to go on
This prison that holds me
Looking darker and more depressing everyday
Saddening me
Making me see that nobody cares about me
This cage that holds me
Showing me the darkest things I've ever seen
Letting me know of the evil in the world
Telling me sweet dark stories
Trying to recruit me
For the evil in the world
Nothing is holding me back...
Trying to bring me down
They close in on me
Making the area
Smaller
And smaller
Trying to suffocate me
Trying to break me
Not wanting me to go on
This prison that holds me
Looking darker and more depressing everyday
Saddening me
Making me see that nobody cares about me
This cage that holds me
Showing me the darkest things I've ever seen
Letting me know of the evil in the world
Telling me sweet dark stories
Trying to recruit me
For the evil in the world
Nothing is holding me back...
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Darkness
I saw the darkness swirling around me
Jeering at me
Taunting me
Trying to make me give in
But I stood tall
Not wanting to fall
Trying not to give in
I stood my ground
Kept my head held high
Showing darkness how strong I really am
But the darkness was persistant
Day after day
It was slowly wearing me down
Wanting to take me as its prisoner
I was slowly losing faith
Slowly giving in
Nobody would come to my rescue
So who would care if I fought anymore
So was it really worth the pain
So I decided
The pain...
Jeering at me
Taunting me
Trying to make me give in
But I stood tall
Not wanting to fall
Trying not to give in
I stood my ground
Kept my head held high
Showing darkness how strong I really am
But the darkness was persistant
Day after day
It was slowly wearing me down
Wanting to take me as its prisoner
I was slowly losing faith
Slowly giving in
Nobody would come to my rescue
So who would care if I fought anymore
So was it really worth the pain
So I decided
The pain...
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Depression
Darkness
All around you
Preventing you from seeing the light
As the darkness surrounds you
You cannot feel anything
Except for depression
As it spins tighter and tighter
You lose all feeling
All emotion
You lose yourself
Eventually it becomes too tight
You cannot breathe
You sit there in agony
Yet you still live
You sit there in pain
Wanting nothing more than death
So,
You provide death for yourself
All around you
Preventing you from seeing the light
As the darkness surrounds you
You cannot feel anything
Except for depression
As it spins tighter and tighter
You lose all feeling
All emotion
You lose yourself
Eventually it becomes too tight
You cannot breathe
You sit there in agony
Yet you still live
You sit there in pain
Wanting nothing more than death
So,
You provide death for yourself
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Agony
Agony
Twisting into my side like a knife
Trying to bring me down
I try to resist
But it's too strong
I don't think I can take much mor
For too much of my blood is being drawn from the wound
Sleep
Saving me from the agony
Too bad I cant just sleep forever
But for now I am safe
For now I can resist
Until I wake up
Morning
The part of the day I hate most
For I am awoken from my peaceful sleep
And attacked again by agony
Every moment I am awake
Agony is there
Tormenting me
Jeering at me
Letting me...
Twisting into my side like a knife
Trying to bring me down
I try to resist
But it's too strong
I don't think I can take much mor
For too much of my blood is being drawn from the wound
Sleep
Saving me from the agony
Too bad I cant just sleep forever
But for now I am safe
For now I can resist
Until I wake up
Morning
The part of the day I hate most
For I am awoken from my peaceful sleep
And attacked again by agony
Every moment I am awake
Agony is there
Tormenting me
Jeering at me
Letting me...
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Free
All anyone wants is to be free
Whether it's free from the drama
Or free from the rumors
Or free from your parents rules
Everybody has their captive
Holding them back from their freedom
Not letting them be truly alive
Everybody has differents captives
Like depression
Or a haunting memory
Or the dread of waking up everyday knowing you will never be good enough
Its how people rebel against their captives
That really defines a person
If they rebel at all
It's how they get over their obstacles
That show a person's true spirit...
Whether it's free from the drama
Or free from the rumors
Or free from your parents rules
Everybody has their captive
Holding them back from their freedom
Not letting them be truly alive
Everybody has differents captives
Like depression
Or a haunting memory
Or the dread of waking up everyday knowing you will never be good enough
Its how people rebel against their captives
That really defines a person
If they rebel at all
It's how they get over their obstacles
That show a person's true spirit...
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Suicide
Tie that noose
Around the neck
Be prepared to jump
There is no looking back
Pour the bleach
Into a cup
On the count of three
Be ready to chug
Prepare the ice bath
Then get in
Slit your wrists
And death will soon begin
If you're going to make the choice
Then think it through
Only do it
If there is nothing else you can do
To save yourself
From the hate
From the pain
Of playing the game
Of life
Around the neck
Be prepared to jump
There is no looking back
Pour the bleach
Into a cup
On the count of three
Be ready to chug
Prepare the ice bath
Then get in
Slit your wrists
And death will soon begin
If you're going to make the choice
Then think it through
Only do it
If there is nothing else you can do
To save yourself
From the hate
From the pain
Of playing the game
Of life
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Cutting
I feel the pain of life
Creeping into my brain
I'm feeling trapped again
Not knowing what to feel
So I take my old friend
Touching the cool sharp edge to my skin
I inhale, exhale
Then I cut in
I'm filled with ecstasy
As I see the thin line of red appear
But almost as quickly as the ecstasy came
It left
Depression slowly taking its place in my brain
Filling my head with the pain of life
Again
So,
I take the kinfe and cut again
Getting my escape from this fucked up life
Allowing myself to temporary feel
Emotions...
Creeping into my brain
I'm feeling trapped again
Not knowing what to feel
So I take my old friend
Touching the cool sharp edge to my skin
I inhale, exhale
Then I cut in
I'm filled with ecstasy
As I see the thin line of red appear
But almost as quickly as the ecstasy came
It left
Depression slowly taking its place in my brain
Filling my head with the pain of life
Again
So,
I take the kinfe and cut again
Getting my escape from this fucked up life
Allowing myself to temporary feel
Emotions...
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