Weirdo they say with the voices I’ve heard “Oh my god, you’re such a nerd” But life isn’t easy Living life with an illness And everyday, planning your death to the finest Little detail Yet they do not know They see your smile But they do not see your woe They look at your laughter They do not see your tears What it’s like to live life Controlled by a fear When you can’t make emotional connections To anyone near That is the true definition of fear