Submissions by maria (IRK)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I try to write but then I go back and read what I wrote and realize I kind of suck. I'm really not as smart as I thought
LOVE POEM
Published
6th Jan 2022 5:24am
6th Jan 2022 5:24am
Was a joke
I had love for him
I thought I was in love
Was I in love
I felt hurt and lied to
I felt betrayed
I didn't believe his excuses
But I stayed
I worried about what he was doing
Who he was with
What he said
Until I finally got away
I stopped caring
Now I'm not sure I love him
I don't believe he cares
I look at him and feel doubt
Fake tears and jokes
I thought I was in love
Was I in love
I felt hurt and lied to
I felt betrayed
I didn't believe his excuses
But I stayed
I worried about what he was doing
Who he was with
What he said
Until I finally got away
I stopped caring
Now I'm not sure I love him
I don't believe he cares
I look at him and feel doubt
Fake tears and jokes
#love
#lies
#betrayal
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
24th Dec 2019 8:31pm
24th Dec 2019 8:31pm
Forfeel
I used to feel
What now is there to feel for
So I suppose
There is really nothing much to feel
Anymore
What now is there to feel for
So I suppose
There is really nothing much to feel
Anymore
#disappointment
#apathy
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DRUGS POEM
Published
23rd Dec 2019 11:22pm
23rd Dec 2019 11:22pm
Redrinkt
I just realized
I'm on public transportation
No knowledge of my inebriation
I just realized I'm sitting here with strangers
I love this shit these days
I get so irritated about little things
Drinking really brings me some relief
My headphones literally drown everything out
Because none of it matters now
music in my ears loud
I love this musical
Fuck socializing
You aren't stopping me
Maybe I felt a little guilty
That shit just slides off though
I'm still going yo
You don't even know
Shut up
I'm me,...
I'm on public transportation
No knowledge of my inebriation
I just realized I'm sitting here with strangers
I love this shit these days
I get so irritated about little things
Drinking really brings me some relief
My headphones literally drown everything out
Because none of it matters now
music in my ears loud
I love this musical
Fuck socializing
You aren't stopping me
Maybe I felt a little guilty
That shit just slides off though
I'm still going yo
You don't even know
Shut up
I'm me,...
#alcohol
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LOVE POEM
Published
23rd Dec 2019 11:01pm
23rd Dec 2019 11:01pm
I had a son
Just now elicit
Nothing special
Just another one
Ownliest
Just now
A notch on his belt
Wish he knew how i felt
He is a man though
And so I am
Nothing special
To him
Just another one
Nothing special
Just another one
Ownliest
Just now
A notch on his belt
Wish he knew how i felt
He is a man though
And so I am
Nothing special
To him
Just another one
#abuse
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SELF POEM
Published
7th Jun 2018 7:15pm
7th Jun 2018 7:15pm
the other way
Introverted, was a big part of how I defined myself
I've been anxiety for too long I can't be sure
How could I even know then
This really is debilitating and how intensely this realization hits me now that I am needing to address reality and the guilt that has built up from avoiding what is paramount to my identity
I don't know who I am
Too long estranged from my family and friends
How can they know who I am when I don't
I feel alone and I miss that acceptance they had for me
I am afraid to diss appoint
I am ashamed that I have abandoned them,...
I've been anxiety for too long I can't be sure
How could I even know then
This really is debilitating and how intensely this realization hits me now that I am needing to address reality and the guilt that has built up from avoiding what is paramount to my identity
I don't know who I am
Too long estranged from my family and friends
How can they know who I am when I don't
I feel alone and I miss that acceptance they had for me
I am afraid to diss appoint
I am ashamed that I have abandoned them,...
#anxiety
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LOVE POEM
Published
7th Dec 2016 11:35pm
7th Dec 2016 11:35pm
Infisane
Im insane
I am insane
And you are to blame
Everytime I enter this phase,
I think I can change
Act, react. Its a circle
So when we find ourselves here yet again,
remember there is no reversal
This is your fault
The darkness is/was the adversary
If I fall in, I am fully engulfed
Again
I will know when too much is too much
Conclusion: I am insane
-Haze
I am insane
And you are to blame
Everytime I enter this phase,
I think I can change
Act, react. Its a circle
So when we find ourselves here yet again,
remember there is no reversal
This is your fault
The darkness is/was the adversary
If I fall in, I am fully engulfed
Again
I will know when too much is too much
Conclusion: I am insane
-Haze
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SELF POEM
Published
26th Feb 2016 4:12am
26th Feb 2016 4:12am
It's a Miracle
I am the page
The lines, my stage
Influenced by self proclamation
Burdened by my own ways
Declared a God
I had immortality
Sacrifice, from all directions
And so mine pursued in selfishness
Whitewashed, selflessness
Relentless, hopeful positivity
Could have been denial of failure
Ignoring uncertainty
The darkness sometimes consumes me
Reminding me what I had forgotten
I am not invincible
Harsh, raw reality
Again, vulnerability...
The lines, my stage
Influenced by self proclamation
Burdened by my own ways
Declared a God
I had immortality
Sacrifice, from all directions
And so mine pursued in selfishness
Whitewashed, selflessness
Relentless, hopeful positivity
Could have been denial of failure
Ignoring uncertainty
The darkness sometimes consumes me
Reminding me what I had forgotten
I am not invincible
Harsh, raw reality
Again, vulnerability...
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STORY POEM
Published
11th Mar 2015 6:44am
11th Mar 2015 6:44am
Upon the Stars
Looking out the window, I see black smoke, far but formidably visible. I feel nothing but fear and then I am soon fighting it. The world is ending because I can feel it and I wasn't ready. I try to warn everyone in my sparse and unfamiliar home. Who are they? I have to inform everyone I know in this state to leave Earth. Only my brother and father seemed to hear me. I somehow see that the Earth is being slowly swallowed whole by an enormous green beast. Where the creature's mouth covers fire burns everything. We leave, I think drive so that we can reach the end of the world. My father...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
12th Feb 2015 12:06pm
12th Feb 2015 12:06pm
Laughing At Me
Am I crazy?
My think voice in accents
Or I don't, in space
It gets mixed up
The sentences won't straight
I am racing
I am vacant
I am unwillingly, seeing people naked
I think my skull has collapsed
There's a hole at the top of my head
Everyone whispers and laughs
Where am I again?
Zoned out to slasher thoughts
And with all the sensation in a vision
I can see them like movie trailers
Incomplete and unsatisfied, I feel restless
I am ranting
I got lost, nothing's my business
Ah, I should have paid better attention
I...
My think voice in accents
Or I don't, in space
It gets mixed up
The sentences won't straight
I am racing
I am vacant
I am unwillingly, seeing people naked
I think my skull has collapsed
There's a hole at the top of my head
Everyone whispers and laughs
Where am I again?
Zoned out to slasher thoughts
And with all the sensation in a vision
I can see them like movie trailers
Incomplete and unsatisfied, I feel restless
I am ranting
I got lost, nothing's my business
Ah, I should have paid better attention
I...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
30th Jan 2015 6:18am
30th Jan 2015 6:18am
Stop. Act
She is like the dying animal you cannot stand to see in pain
You do everything you can to keep the dying animal, alive
Stopping to think you realize, the reason is mostly guilt
Guilty, for fataly wounding that animal
You believed it eased both yours and the animal's pain
So you stop and think
...
One is dying for a long time
One is still deeply disturbed
You do everything you can to keep the dying animal, alive
Stopping to think you realize, the reason is mostly guilt
Guilty, for fataly wounding that animal
You believed it eased both yours and the animal's pain
So you stop and think
...
One is dying for a long time
One is still deeply disturbed
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
30th Jan 2015 6:05am
30th Jan 2015 6:05am
Addict Morticia
It is like folded towels
Alone in a fold
We're so together
But we're so alone
I am so high
Nothing closed to stoned
Every smokey place clouds
feels like I have no space
To think
To breathe
And I'm lost too soon
Three nights of dope, solo,
room
Visions and thoughts
Obsess over insanity
Sanity might not be lost
Too fast too fast
Thought..
I'm lost
Alone in a fold
We're so together
But we're so alone
I am so high
Nothing closed to stoned
Every smokey place clouds
feels like I have no space
To think
To breathe
And I'm lost too soon
Three nights of dope, solo,
room
Visions and thoughts
Obsess over insanity
Sanity might not be lost
Too fast too fast
Thought..
I'm lost
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
20th Jan 2015 2:09am
20th Jan 2015 2:09am
MyUs MeYou MeWe?
Am I a normal girl
no, what is normal
Question is, am I functional
I don't know
The observation said I was wrong when social
How long have you been on these drugs
She says years now
I asked [/u]do you believe in god[/u]
That's fucked up
Are these questions connected for you
I had no clue
You're a filthy jew
No I'm not prejudice
I just hate you
What's wrong with me
I'm sorry
Sometimes I think crazy is you
You're certainly awkward, we all agree
Seems I just cannot see
I just cannot see
Who are you?
I question,...
no, what is normal
Question is, am I functional
I don't know
The observation said I was wrong when social
How long have you been on these drugs
She says years now
I asked [/u]do you believe in god[/u]
That's fucked up
Are these questions connected for you
I had no clue
You're a filthy jew
No I'm not prejudice
I just hate you
What's wrong with me
I'm sorry
Sometimes I think crazy is you
You're certainly awkward, we all agree
Seems I just cannot see
I just cannot see
Who are you?
I question,...
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